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Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Ngerem di Country Office

Jadi yah 2 mingguan kemaren sayah ketempuhan duduk di country office.  Rupanya ada sebuah kebijakan di sana bahwa setiap officer yang sedang cuti harus diganti oleh seseorang dimana yang bersangkutan tidak hanya menjadi semacam penampung semua masalah yang muncul selama periode cuti, tapi juga harus nongkrong setor muka exactly di work station itu.  Seru nggak tuh :p

Yang positif selama duduk di sana:
1.  I got to know what's going on behind the scene.  Tentunya nggak semua hal-hal indahnya, tapi lebih kepada mengapa sesuatu perlu dikerjakan dengan cara A dan bukan cara B.  Mohon maap ya, sini kan nggak pernah dapet induction training jadi periode 2 minggu lebih itu membuat saya terkagum-kagum abis.  Agak-agak menumbuhkan semacam empathy gitu deh kepada orang-orang dari CO.
2.  Kantornya konsisten adem dengan tingkat kebisingan yang pas buat saya.  Yeah.. harus saya akui bahwa suasananya membuat saya 'semacam bisa memfungsikan otak secara optimal'.
3.  Surprisingly I found people 'speaking the same language' :)  Talking with this group of people really stimulating my brain, if you know what I mean.  Guess I get use to give long explanation and sometimes have to work hard finding other 'words' even when talking with co-workers in the same project office here.  And I pretend that challenge has never been a challenge :)
4.  Keren tauk being part of the strict-security-checking-process-which-maybe-someday-may-give-me-opportunity-to-have-blue-passport :))

Yang ngebetein selama di sana:
1.  Walopun unik aja ngelewatin proses pengamanan di gedung tersebut, tapi pada saat saya harus menjalaninya like 4 times a day (because I don't have permanent access to go in/out of the office) maka seluruh prosesnya menjadi melelahkan.  Dimulai dari meninggalkan KTP di bawah, metal detector, tahapan buka-bukaan badegolan, penggantian identitas internal dan sebagainya yang harus diulang di setiap lantai yang dikunjungi *sigh*
2.  Saya nggak punya access code untuk melakukan panggilan telepon.  Memangnya saya ini semacam patung kucing melambai-lambai yang hanya untuk dipajang biar rejeki dateng??  I need to do my work which include make phone calls tauuuuk...  Pret deh soal ini!!
3.  Makan siang is challenging.  Yeah..nggak banyak orang yang sudah saya kenal yang bersedia selalu memberi ajakan maksi bersama.  Sebagai orang yang selalu jengah dengan lingkungan baru dan cenderung introvert, sayah menderita berats soal opsi yang ada saat maksi.  Lagian kalo mau pergi sendiri saya harus menjalani rutinitas security check untuk bolak balik maksi itu juga loh, secara tak bisa pun membuka dan menutup pintu sendiri tanpa access card.
4.  Saya datang pada saat situasi sebenernya sedang gonjang-ganjing so yeah..it's kinda unpleasant to sit in my NPO's desk.

Begitulah kira-kira :p    

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Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Writer's Block

I ain't no writer so it's very make sense that I never have a writer block problem :))  But somehow I kinda understand the meaning of that sounds-sophisticated-condition.  Just because I have to finalize several documents but really cannot make any essential move.  And somehow I don't know the reason of this annoying situation.  I think I just have to accept it and wait until the lamp in my head has been turned on.  Screw the deadline, I really just cannot move forward.

Deep breath...inhale..exhale...ooommmmmmm....

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Wednesday, October 05, 2011

Menulis Di Pagi Hari

Akhir-akhir ini saya suka memulai hari dengan menulis apa saja di sini, tergantung mood saat itu.  Kadang-kadang diterbitkan, kadang disimpan untuk dipakai nanti kalau mood datang, atau dihapus kalau memang suasana hati sudah tidak relevan.

Hahahaha...sudah 3 kali dalam satu paragraf saya menyebutkan tentang mood dan suasana hati.  Ya, kalo dipikir-pikir menulis di pagi hari itu efeknya buat saya adalah menetralisir apa yang saya rasakan di pagi hari sebelum mulai masuk dalam suasana bekerja.   God help, I need someone to lean on :(

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Wednesday, August 31, 2011

The Pressure is ON

What pressure? This's maybe an imaginary one for some people.

Here is the thing: I know that long distance relationship is not my cup of tea. I simply don't wanna do it. But what if I have no choice? Yes that's right... like it or not I really have to do it now.

At first a tried to accept that for the time being I really have to do it. Well at least until next year. But the more I try the more I know that I cannot do it. So it is my choice to end it at the soonest. Then I started to seek for other job opportunities in Jakarta. I even don't mind to change my status as permanent employee now and work based on project.

One or two opportunities come, alhamdulillah. Some I have to decline because although those are good and bring closer to si pacar, I dont think that I can survive the hardship of the work. And now...there is one opportunity coming.

I think I will be good in that position and I said yes for that organization's invitation of an interview. So last week within my excitement to get the opportunity, I told one of my colleague. To my surprise she tell other people about it. The worst is that she told my direct supervisor about my interview. Now the situation is awkward because my super just confronted me with the news she got.

I cannot blame my super to confirm my loyalty because it's her task to make sure the whole team member is with her along the journey. What I still cannot understand is the reason that colleague pass the information about me to the super. Even to other people who relate with me in distance. It is so amazing that she did it.

I cannot think any positive reasoning that might be in her mind when decided to gossip around about me, when I specifically told her to keep it for herself. It's just amazingly ugly to do such thing. For sure I cannot trust her anymore now. And if ever that particular position is really for me, I will confront her nicely to say that what she did is not nice at all and she should watch her behaviour.

Anyway..I feel the pressure in increasing now. Because now my super know openly that I am thinking about leaving. And as the 'Nana' that I know, I understand this need to be fulfilled. Yes, if before I was only testing the water to leave and even have preliminary decision to stay, now I really have to leave. I have to set my way out of my job now very soon. While at the same time I have doubt whether si pacar really want me to be with him or not (remember, he escape for 3 days already with no warning already).

So yes the pressure is very much on. I may will decide to just resign without any other secured job, that can happen. Let's see how can I survive this difficult situation.

An experience now about thing I get warned already in the past: be careful with Filipina coz gossiping is in their blood. Now I learn my lesson and say to myself: never trust Filipina. It sounds racist and generalizing, but so what? This's me, a person. I don't ask people to follow, it's just me and my decision.

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